Saturday, December 27, 2008

Thoughts. The Clingy kind.

Some things remain in your mind like mussels on a rock. Even when the waves dash the rocks and wash it clean, these things stubbornly cling on. Waiting for the fisher folk to deftly carve them out of the stone. I’ve seen them do it. It’s like sculpturing. The clams look so much like stone that it is hard to imagine that they are in fact a living organism who has just made the unassuming sea rock their home. Thoughts are like that too. Some thoughts just cling stubbornly in your head.
I have read somewhere. Or was it someone telling can’t remember how I got this information. Anyway it is perhaps one more of my friends, the well read kind, expounding their bookish knowledge. That is the only way my brain can sponge up facts. The ones I read fade away almost instantly. The facts people tell me stick like mussels again. Coming back to the new found knowledge, it is said, that man is capable of thinking over 60,000 thoughts in a given period of time. Say in few minutes. Irrespective of the kind of person he is, or the job he has undertaken. Irrespective of his calling, state of life etc...
Some of these thoughts are unnecessary, I feel, yet in some crevice of my mind it remains. I used to fight it before. The more I fought, the more it stubborn it became. But now I realise the only way to remove it, is to ignore it. Perhaps accept its dark looming presence. And then it sheds on its own. Snubbed by my disregard.
But again the one thing that keeps me going is the underlying fact that these thoughts don’t make me. And I am not, these thoughts. I guess if you can ignore and dismiss it as mere thoughts, and not give it much importance, they are badly snubbed. But if you even attach the slightest importance and let it linger. They cling. And oh my God! Do they cling or what!

5 comments:

AKA said...

Shals....all that talk about mussels at noon is making me drool thinking about fried mussels...Alphi

Shalini George said...

is that the only reason why you find this interesting. Gee! You just leave me high and dry ;)

J2 said...

well i think i need to start my own blog.. i have so much to write..but as usual i just cant put it through... but this time i will give it a try...hmmm i been a person very connected or believed there is a connection a strong one with gods or cosmic beings... well it was quite difficult to understand what could be the connection, until recent. Now I have a more clearer idea about this connection. To start with , we might need to use our brains to rewind to past as much as we know... and also understand and believe the fact that me living here is kannur and Obama in US matches so well except for the external features... How did that happen.. how come we all look almost alike..and how come when a person with additional organ or a missing organ called abnormal. It simply gets us to the reality that the whole human race started from one point . That means we are multiplied from one. So something inside me is as old as the starting of the human race. I or my root did not start recently..ever since the human race started.. my root was also there...that means when gods lived on earth.. my root was also there... so i do have a close connection with the gods.. and i believe my root was directly connected with the divine and me ... living with a gene inside me which carries all the experience, power and strength of a God. I am trying to find where that gene is hiding....

J2 said...

oh dear... only today morning i realised that what your blog subject was and what comment i gave you had absolutely no relationship... che.. why i thought you had written something about spirituality and holiness, and how fast my mind got myself into the conclusion of writing about me and the god inside me... hmmm well it shows how some hidden and untold subjects in one’s mind can be triggered by some words... so i am in a better mindset today morning, all fresh, and relaxed.. so let me put a new comment on the "Thoughts, The Clingy kind" .. My Dear Friend, i should say that you have put it really well. Something everyone thinks quite often.. Well the difficult part is that many a time the unwanted thoughts evoke loads of strong energy inside you. A kind of energy which is difficult to identify as good or bad. By the time you realise the energy was not good enuff.. you had already wasted too much time on it.. and then you feel lousy about yourself for wasting your time on such thoughts. Sometimes when i am in a good mood, I always try to remember what is the strongest recording on my mind about each person. It is so silly but still amazing to find out that the thoughts that gets recorded so strong and never gets re recorded are the happiest time or an incident that had hurt you badly. Most of the space where the thoughts you are done with gets overwritten with new incidents. So basically , the thoughts that remain so strong in your mind are mostly things you could not fully finish with. hmmm.. this is getting interesting uhh? I remember an incident which happened when i was just 7 years old . Two kids of my dad’s friend came to play with with me. They were from UK. A girl and her small brother. Both of them smaller than me but good in their language and knowledge. Me being older, tried to talk to them with the little English i knew. And I was somehow managing it till the time they wanted to go to the toilet. I took them to the newly made toilet in dads room to impress them. As soon as the little boy saw the wash basin he just jumped on it and started to hang on it like Tarzan and i got really worried about it. So I shouted at him instantly "hey don’t do that it will broke". I knew something I said did not sound correct... but i could do anything, these kids started to laugh and laugh so loudly and won't stop laughing. I felt so sad and angry and did not know what to do about it. I just left that place and totally ignored them. I remember that incident so clearly, and i still wonder why it is never going off my head. Those two are now good friends of mine and every time i see them this incident comes to my mind... but nowadays even I laugh at it... but I don’t think they would remember anything about it... I don’t want to ask them too.. But see some things you say or do could get recorded in somebody else mind so strongly..and always clings on.....

Shalini George said...

Jithu, thats exactly what i meant about thoughts the clingy kind. Your comment was so moving. It's so true somethings just cling don't they. But the good thing is. these can be healed as well...