Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Trance-ending

I am in trance right now. Everything appears so strange at this point . Defying logic and reason. I see it every day in my life and in yours. You could be so full of wisdom, ideas. The pillar of strength and the banyan tree for souls. At same time so vulnerable and insecure. Then I wonder how the same person can be both at the same time. Then I see I am too. And that they are too.
Right now I am writing this blog listening to some old songs, which is transporting me to a different state of mind. I am somewhere between nostalgia and that strange feeling that creeps in before one begins to feel alone. But the truth it is I am lonely and so are you. We know that. We see that every day in each other’s lives, yet we continue, not doing anything about it.
Then it dawns on me. That everyone is lonely for there is never a perfect understanding between people. That is when the lacking becomes obvious. But the lacking is a blessing. That which helps us seek and find our own truths. Perhaps it is this search that takes us to that higher plane. I think I have managed to put my finger on what my ‘higher plane’ is. For me it’s pretty much my search for God.
To seek His Holy face. I am very sure that when I manage to look at His face finally I shall be fulfilled. Therefore I stand in gratitude every day that I am never satisfied. That I am always wanting. This makes me look beyond my limited sphere, and understand that there is always so much more to see, to learn... and so much of love all around. The possibilities born out of loving unconditionally like the Almighty...the possibilities that come from the knowledge about our nothingness...
Right about here my trance ends. I feel transcended! ;-)

6 comments:

Bhavesh said...

Its really a big thing to realize what you are looking for in ur life ... well if you think u know what u want, then u r in the right direction :-) ... well i think i am still in the trance and i am not sure if i am going to get out of it , or do i actually want to come out of it ???

Shalini George said...

Thats a deeper question Bhavesh!:)
Thanks for being there.

Beautiful Life said...

Being in a trance. It is, what could I call it, beautiful or comfortable?, where mind and body could be at rest and clamness and clarity comes rapidly?. In the end, we must and we will come out of trance to face the reality. Looking back I feel that somehow trance helps and it is a great feeling when it helps to face the life with ease.

Shalini George said...

Antony, what can i say..my soul sings..when you write in.
Thankyou,

Smitha said...

Angst always mothers beautiful prose. Beautiful and brilliant post!

Shalini George said...

Hmmm. Thankyou smitha, for your kind words. Glad to know you relate.